Five Phazes

Five Phazes

Fresh and new to all that surrounds me

Born unrighteous

As I enter phaze one

Seeking truth wisdom and knowledge has just begun

Touching this tasting that

Time to time a stunning smack to bring me back to reality

Chastisement to keep me on point

I do not have full control of my joints

But practice makes perfection into the second phase

It's a little shaky and a lot of shady

I'm walking and talking but still unable to verbally express these deep wounds I wear on my chest

Cause he and she touched my breast

They entered fear and closed my garden

I held it all in to release only tears

And more tears

Even bigger fears

As I step into phaze three

My senses get me in touch with spirituality

Sunday lessons

Half pasted confessions

Lying cheating and stealing

Still receiving protection and blessings

Phaze four like Tamar and Amnon

Opened my door clouded my mind

So where is David's son?

I searched for more resting flat on my face

Legs wide shut

The new me hides in the cut

Anger filled as I face phase five

Confusion, delusions, and fusions

As I strive to mentally stay alive with my God

I stay alive

Stumbled here tripped there

The last fall was sweet oil on my head

I opened my eyes

I finally realized what a pleasant surprise

Darkness has passed

I look at me and the world no more through a broken hour glass

Healing of my mind body and soul

Letting go of the world

Letting God

The creator of peace control my soul

We all are tried through the fire through phases

To come out pure as gold

Genaya Brown